Saturday was race day - all 13.1 miles of it! And I made it! I'm so glad I was able to do this and so thankful to Tricia for being my faithful training partner - I could not have done it without her and I mean that! The one week I tried to do a long run (11 miles) without her, I just about died and it took me forever. It was fitting that we crossed the finish line with an arm each around each other's shoulder.
The past two years have been some of the most difficult I have had so far. After Ryan's graduation, we had a few anti-climatic months of unemployment. Then we moved to Idaho and have had a really difficult adjustment - even after two years here, I still don't feel like I belong or feel like it's home in any sort of way. I do finally have some great friends (hi friends! thanks so much for being my pal!) that I am so happy to have. Right after we moved here, we started treatment for Peter's speech delay and sensory disorder and have waded through all sorts of tests and worries about other possible diagnoses (which thankfully we don't worry about anymore, at least not much). We have struggled financially and I have struggled spiritually and emotionally. It's just been a difficult two years of nothing dramatic or terrible, but just some hard stuff.
This run was either going to be one of those things that I set out to do and didn't accomplish, again, or it was going to be the beginning of a change. I'm happy to say that it's the beginning of a change. It felt incredible to cross that finish line and think of all the hard work I had put into it and have the affirmation that I have the ability to do the things I say I'm going to do and I don't have to be blown around by the things in my life that I don't have control over. I think it was fitting that I had Tricia with me the whole way through - really there's not anything you accomplish all on your own. It's all been with the help of friends or family (thanks to Ryan for always happily watching the boys while I ran) or God, or all of those. And that's a lesson I've needed to learn as well.
I would have posted sooner, but I kept waiting for a free download of my finish line photo to be posted and it's not up yet. I'll probably amend this post later for those who are interested.